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Here's The Sweetest Place On Earth.
My Funland.

i finally put a pw, only very close ones culd view it.
and hackers of cos. LOL
i culd finally not consider abt wad ppl think and post ALL my thoughts out.
cried last night.. and it was a terrible one.
i really cant tahan dat tayweishen anymore.
he is treating my sister like dunno wad la.
although bodysuit mistreats me all the time.
but i still love her alot.
i know she dun like me.
but i still like her alot and alot ):
i feel bad and upset when i hear her scolding herself.
in vulgarities.
and dat FUCKING BASTARD TAYWEISHEN was the one who call her to do so.
sister's vulgarities vocab is as lousy as mine.
cant think of more to say dat bastard call her say more.
WALAO CAN. WAD KIND OF BF ARE YOU.
HEAR GF SCOLD HERSELF SO HAPPY AR.
KNN CCB PCB. [okay, my vocab not dat laoya]
she keep knocking herself on the wall.
even said to jump off the building.
just to prove her innocence of not adding a guy in friendster.
the worst is.. she wanted to cut her wrist.
i really dunno wad's got to her.
just for a bastard?
i cried like dunno wad la last night.
just for her.. hoping she wun cut her wrist due to me.
but den i know im meaningless to her compared to dat bastard.
she know im crying but din bother much.
i went to the toilet and cry for her.
she just came and ask you cry for wad, dun care him la.
and JUST WALKED OFF.
i know i tell ppl i dun like comfort.
bud cant she just say some nice words.
telling me she'll be alright.
she din even say one.
i dun even know wad am i worth in her.
IM HER BLOOD-RELATED SISTER.
SLEEPING WITH HER EVERY NIGHT FOR 14YEARS.
AND I CANT EVEN FIGHT A BASTARD SHE MET WITH FOR 1YEAR.
DAT IS MISTREATING HER LIKE RUBBISH.
i really dunno how she treat me as la.
does she even care abt my present.
she only knows of me when im of a advantage to her.
she's never like dat to me in the past.
even if im at my worst, she will let me.
i feel like hating her. very very much
NO, I HATE DAT FUCKING BASTARD TAYWEISHEN.
HE'S AN ARSEHOLE.
I HATE HIMMMMMMM!

woken up in the morning.
due to the terrible tearing last night.
my double eyelids almost turn into one.
went for band in a rush.
cos forget to photocopy results slip.
had sectional.
lucky my piccolo part was gave to annabel.
cos i keep laughing den cannot pitch properly =x
if not i wasnt even concentrating.
and was trying to blow the worst, cos i dun wan blow.
shirley was back for band (:
and my one player part for when you blah blah was given to her.
now, im very relaxed for the concert liao (:
zhaoyu and me just.. cant be back like the past.
it's hard, or.. it's weird.
she did took the iniative to talk to me.
but i dunno wad to reply.
i just think of the bbq when i saw her face.
its hard not to think abt it.
band holiday practises were actually the best time to be back together.
but.. i dunno wad's wrong with me ):
i cant reply to her very smoothly like the past.
i dunno how to continue with her words.
annabel shiangning left band early.
wanted to join the seniors and sit together.
sokhui play with me and say the seat was for her waterbottle.
im stucked in the middle of no where.
with no one sitting at the sides of me.
i feel so lonely.
i almost wanted to broke out.
i know im thinking to much.
bud i just cant control.
i feel im not wanted.
im only wanted when im of a advantage to someone.
i hate myself for thinking all these.
but im scared its the truth.
and i have to face it one day.
maybe im just a normal person.
dat no one takes much notice of.
not like those who fare really well, or really badly.
i wan to be noticed and being treasured.
i hope to be first person of someone who thinks of.
at least one will do.
but there was none. not even one

wait, i suddenly feel very bad.
now i know how rebecca and daojian feels.
daojian's msn nick sounds so sad.
but its like no one take cares abt it.
i dun think anyone has went to comfort him.
maybe i will soon be like them.
cos i feel jiahui is leaving further away from me soon.
erzi once said to me im boring.
i think i really am.
who likes to hang out with boring ppl right.
i will soon become a part of daojian and rebecca.. very soon ));